If You Are a Dodder Flower - Chapter 79
“Every time I see you, I am very nervous…”
“You always stretch your face… I am afraid…”
“But I can’t see you, I… my heart is empty… not practical…”
What is she saying? Who is talking about? Who gave her a sullen face?
At home, it is his father, the most majestic leader of this family, she is not afraid to give her a gentle smile.
Xia Ro said and fell asleep.
Listening to her breathing gradually calmed down, and finally Cao Yang hung up the phone.
Later, Cao Yang recalled these things and determined that this was the first time that Xia Roo talked about those inexplicable words.
At that time, he was only worried about her insomnia, and he never thought that things were much more serious than he thought.
Xia Roo calls Cao Xiong every week to report peace. On the phone, she has a soft tone, and she does not report her worries.
Cao Yang knew that she did not want Cao Xiong to worry, nor did she tell anyone about her situation. At home, only Cao Yang knows that Xia Ro is in a bad condition.
Far away from his Xia Rou, but will call him in her late night, just to listen to his voice.
“It’s easier to fall asleep…” she said.
So, do you like him or do you like him?
Cao Yang did not understand. Never like this, I feel that the woman’s mind is so puzzling.
But Xiarou’s insomnia has not improved. In the state of insomnia, she will say something unintelligible in the middle of the night.
Once she asked him: “…What exactly do you want to tell me?”
“Who?” he asked. He knew that she was actually in a state of half-sleeping and half-awake, and her brain was not very awake.
“You,” she said.
“That day… the day you divorced…”
Cao Yang frowned.
“Soft, I haven’t got married yet.”
Xia Rou was suddenly quiet.
For a long time, she suddenly woke up.
“Oh…” she said, “You are Cao Yang.”
Of course he is Cao Yang! Who else can it be?
Cao Yang vinegar is overwhelming! But also keenly grasped this important information – a divorced man!
Cao An finally ruled out the suspicion. well!
But… When did Xia Rou have a relationship with a divorced man? Is it a teacher at school?
Cao Yang asked someone to do the next investigation. There are several male teachers who are divorced at school. But Cao Yang looked at it. No one is attractive or handsome enough to attract Xia Rou.
This clue is broken.
Because he misses Xia Rou, he will also ask for occasional videos with her to see what she looks like.
Xia Rou did not agree at the beginning, and later resisted him, he agreed. But since she began to lose sleep, Cao Yang noticed her thinning after several videos.
He was worried, and she refused to video with him again, only to call.
This makes Cao Yang very angry. He told her that if she continued this way, she would have to give up the exchange program and return to China.
Xiarou promised him to adjust his work and cultivate his body.
Insomnia is a disease that is notoriously cured worldwide.
In order to stare at him, let him know, she tried to restrain herself from calling him at night. Taking advantage of himself is the daytime, and he is playing over at dusk, lie to him that her situation has improved.
Cao Yang was once deceived. Until one night, he told her that he had just attended a wedding.
“Who?” she asked.
“Old Huo,” he said.
Xia Rou’s image was stunned for a while before he asked: “Is Geng Gang married? With… Wang Man?”
“Or who else? Of course, Wang Man.” He didn’t care.
The next day, when he was shining brightly, Xiarou called in the middle of the night.
“Wang Man is married… What do you do?” Xiarou sobbed gently.
Wang Man is married, what is he doing? Cao Yang is inexplicable, helplessly yelling at her: “I have you.”
“But… I am with you…” Xiarou choked. “What does he do? What should he do?”
“……Who is he?”
“Big brother, big brother… what to do?”
Cao Yang’s heart was loose, saying: “When you are with me, what can you do? Of course, live happily together.”
“No… you don’t understand…” Xia Rou cried sadly and hung up.
This phone debunked the lie of Xia Rou. Her insomnia has never been better.
Cao Yang became more and more worried, and he was angry that she immediately put down her studies and came home. But Xia Rou refused.
Even refused to call him again.
A semester soon passed. When Cao Xiong was not happy to tell Cao Yang, he received a call from Xia Rou. Xia Ro said that he would travel with his classmates during the holidays, so when he was not ready to come back, Cao Yang realized that Xia Rou The situation is serious.
At this time, he needs help.
He told the situation of Xia Rou to Cao An, the only family who can enter and leave freely.
When Cao An was shocked, he immediately put down his hand and flew to the city where Xia Rou was.
A few days later, he called Cao Yang.
“She was so thin. I was shocked at first sight.” Cao An said. “She won’t let me take a picture for you.”
In fact, he did not dare to tell Cao Yang that Xia Rou’s appearance can be described as “shaped and shaped”.
“What happened to her?” Cao Yang asked quietly.
“It’s not just insomnia, I think…” Cao An was awkward and said what he was observing. “She has a problem with her mental state.”
Cao Yang’s heart is like being pinched.
“I have classmates here, help me make an appointment with a good psychologist. I will accompany you to see her and tell you.” Cao An said.
In the days of waiting, Cao Yang was worried.
A few days later, Cao An called: “It’s hard to say a word, I will fax you the case. You can see it yourself.”
Cao Yang soon received a fax from Cao An.
On the medical record, there is a signature authorization from Xia Rou, allowing doctors to submit their medical records to their families.
Cao Yang smoked his cigarette, and the more he saw it, the more his brow was wrinkled.
Cao An called again: “Did you see?”
“Look. What is going on?”
“It’s very troublesome. She is depressed.” Cao An said, “But the worst thing is that she has paranoia.”
Yes, Cao Yang has already seen it from the medical record.
In the world of Xia Rou, there are two of him.
According to Xia Rou’s description, the doctors coded the two as “Yang” and “Brother” respectively. Through the first in-depth conversation, the doctor initially determined that “yang” is in reality, and “brother” is what Xia Rou thought.
“I also talked to the doctor, and explained the things of both of you.” Cao An tried to be euphemistic. “The doctor thinks that this is because she used to value your identity as a brother in the past, and the relationship has changed dramatically. At the same time, the heart resisted. At the same time, because of this change in relationship, you lost your brother’s identity. And softly can’t let go, so I thought of a one to fill you.”
These have already been thought of when Cao Yang saw the medical case.
There was no third man at all. The man in Xiarou’s heart is him!
His heart is like a needle.
He took a deep breath and ordered Cao An: “Bring her back!”
“No.” Cao An helpless. “She won’t. This is not the country, here… If I force her, any passer-by will see the police, I will have to be locked in. I will have you to bail me.”
Cao Yang only feels that the blood is surging and there is nowhere to force. I hate the place where Xia Rou runs so far that he can’t do anything!
“How do you arrange it?” He could only ask.
“After the next appointment is a week later. Fixed a week to see a doctor.” Cao An comforted him, “Brother, don’t worry. Soft or very suitable for treatment, she actually understands.”
“The doctor said that, like her, she can realize that she is in a bad state and can actively seek help from the outside world. It is best to cure patients who actively cooperate with the treatment.”
Good fart! ! !
Cao Yang violently kicked the chair.
From the time he spent his boyhood, he was calmer day by day, and more and more he was the father. He has been for a long time, no such thing is not calm.
He read the case repeatedly several times.
【he? He is my “brother” and has always been. 】
【he? He is “yang”. 】
[I thought he was “brother”, I made a mistake, he is not. 】 [“Brother” … already … can not find … … Cao Yang every read, my heart seems to have been cut a knife.
He recalled that Xia Rou had a bright eye, and the smile overflowed. Trust and closeness to him is like being born in the bone marrow.
He remembered that she came to this house, solitary, he had to ask her every month, every parent meeting was him to open. Her food and clothing, academic performance, social circle, and all his care and care.
For Xia Rou, perhaps, he even surpassed the category of “brothers” long ago?
Solitary Xia Rou, look at him, brother, father… even, on behalf of the mother.
She relied on him almost devoutly until… He held her in her arms as a man.
Cao Yang, for the first time felt regret.
He called Xia Rou.
“Come back,” he said lowly. “I don’t touch you.”
“You want to be my sister, I will give you a big brother.”
But the voice of Xia Rou is full of sadness.
“I can’t go back,” she said. “I can’t go back.”
“No more… can’t go back…”
Yes, once something crosses the line, it will never go back.
He once entered her body and changed her from a girl to a woman. The memory of this bone, he and she will not forget.
He then regrets, and can no longer let them return to the past.
Cao Yang, the heart is like a knife.
Cao An returned to China after the second treatment.
“She works very hard and really works hard to get along with the treatment.” He said, “I can feel it, she really wants to make herself better.”
“In the future, each medical doctor will fax you directly. The doctor may also call you. If you have family treatment, the effect will be better.”
Cao Yang’s silent smoking.
Cao An went for half a month, and this incident can no longer hold Cao Xiong.
Cao Xiong has not had such a temper for many years. He also personally called Xiarou.
Cao Yang didn’t know what he and Xia Rou had talked about. But Xia Rou still did not return, Cao Xiong just sighed, no longer forced her.
Cao Yang, who learned the result, disappointed to get out of Cao Xiong’s study.
Looking at the back of the corridor, the long brother silenced the back of the smoke, Cao An also sighed.
It is a very good thing. Xia Rou stayed at the Cao family and really became their family. They no longer have to worry that she will be tempered by others when she marries in the future.
How can you get to such a point?
Clear summer and soft, the brain is so clear…
He remembered that he and her were feeding the ducks with breadcrumbs on the clear river. She mentioned He Chengzhe.
“He likes you. You like him too… Why are you doing this to him?” she asked.
“Should you be better for someone you like?”
“A person’s life is full of accidents. I don’t know when it will suddenly die.”
“Even if you are lucky enough to be able to regain a lifetime, you will not return to the exact same past, and you will not find the exact same person.”
“Those who are at fault can’t correct it.”
“Those regrets can’t make up…”
“Don’t let yourself regret it.”
Xia Rou looked at the water at that time and looked calm.
If she is not too thin, she can’t see that she is suffering from insomnia, depression and paranoia.
Obviously, it looks like this… awake.
Cao An also smoked a cigarette and then called He Chengzhe: “I am back. Where are you?”
“Well, some words tell you.”
“Speaking in person…”
Under the authorization of Xia Rou, the doctor sent the medical case to Cao Yang on time every week.
Cao Yang does not need to see the doctor’s analysis report. From those conversation records, he can taste the pain of Xia Rou’s struggle.
“Brother”, the man she dreamed of, was too heavy for her to be the source of all her pain.
In the past week and week, Xiarou’s delusions did not improve. But her insomnia began to improve with the help of the doctor.
The communication between the doctor and Xia Ro is getting deeper and deeper.
The deeper the “brother” is, the more life-like. This man seems to have existed for many years in the life of Xia Rou.
This existence has been engraved into the bone marrow of Xia Rou.
One day, the doctor asked Xiarou an important question.
Doctor: [Do you love them? Any one of them? 】 Xiarou: […] Doctor: [No, I should ask questions separately. 】
Doctor: [Do you love “yang”? 】
Xia Roo: [I don’t know…]
Doctor: [So, “brother”? This “brother”, do you love him? The doctor made a note next to the record. The patient was silent for a long time, so that he thought the patient refused to answer the question.
But she finally answered.
The corner of the fax paper was smashed by Cao Yang.
“Xiarou, why look at yourself?” He asked her, very angry.
Xia Rou is silent.
“Where are you worse than others? What do you miss? Xia Rou, you are totally thinking about yourself!”
“You don’t always want to know, why do I like you? You don’t always think that Wang Man is like me? I tell you, Wang Man is good again, what about you! In my eyes, you are the best!”
“Not just me. Who is not good to you at home? Who owes you to you? No. Why is it good for you? Because you deserve someone else’s good!”
“Everyone has its own shortcomings, but it must have its own advantages. You should not only see the strengths of others, but infinitely magnify your shortcomings!”
“Don’t look at yourself casually. It’s not only good grades, business success is good! You have your good, because of these, you are you! Because of these, others will like you! Will be good to you!”
“Xiarou, come back! You can’t accept me, don’t want to see me again, it doesn’t matter. I am far away from you. You just have to live your life.”
“Don’t run so far. It’s too far, you have something, I can’t do anything.”
“I don’t ask you to be rich and rich, I only hope that you are safe and happy. There is a man who really knows how to cherish you and love you!”
“Cao Yang…” The voice of Xiarou suddenly sounded on the phone, slang, and the tail trembled. “what did you say?”
“I said you are coming back.” Cao Yang said.
“No, the last sentence, what are you talking about?” she said.
Cao Yang thought about it and remembered it.
“I don’t ask you to be rich and rich. I only hope that you are safe and happy. There is a man who really knows how to cherish you and love you.” He said, “Let me know, when I am not around you, I will have a personal meeting.” Take care of you, I will be at ease.”
“No matter who you are with, where you are. You know that I am here, always here. No matter what happens, you can come back to me.”
“With a big brother, you can always protect you.”
On the phone, he heard the sound of Xia Rou’s breathing.
Since that day, the situation of Xia Rou has slowly improved.
At dusk, she called and her voice was a little hoarse.
“Just awake…” she said, “I have a good sleep, I haven’t slept so long…”
“Cao Yang, I miss you.”
The doctor gave Caoyang an analysis report.
The “yang” of reality and the “brothers” who have been delusional and separated from the “yang” are beginning to reintegrate.
The state of Xia Rou is a little better.
Her work gradually returned to normal, and her physical condition was much better.
“Weighed two pounds more than last week,” she said.
“Not too much for ten pounds.” Cao Yang grinds his teeth. “Cao An said that you are all skinny.”
Slowly, Cao Yang can feel the phone, the bright and cheerful Xia Rou seems to be back.
He can hear her laughing voice again.
Although it is far from the ocean, thousands of miles, still like the sky.
That day she told him something about the school. He took care of her bunch of daily attention carefully.
She said: “Know, big brother.”
After so long, I finally heard her call him “big brother.”
Cao Yang’s eyes were suddenly wet.
“Soft.” He called her back again. “It doesn’t matter if you don’t like me. You are fine, just do.”
“No…” Xiarou said.
“I want to understand… Cao Yang…” Her voice was as light as a breeze, but she felt that she had never been brave.
She took the courage to say, “I like you.”
“Then come back. Come back soon!” Cao Yang gritted his teeth.
“Come on. It’s almost over.” Xia Rou said, “I will go back soon. Cao Yang, you wait for me.”
“Well, wait for you.”
It will take a long time for you to come back.
Cao Yang hates to die.
On the day when Xia Rou came back, the weather was clear.
She does not want Cao Yang to pick her up at the airport. “I am not a child,” she said.
When Xiao Yang said that Xia Rou arrived, Cao Yang strode into the foyer of the main building.
She stood there and happened to wear a black skirt. Just like when she first came to this home.
But this time she has no sorrowful smell on her body, and she is filled with the feeling of peace of mind that “I am back.”
She looked at Cao Yang quietly, slowly, slowly, showing a smile.
“Big brother,” she called him. “I am back.”
Cao Yang’s mouth was tight and she was fixed at her.
Suddenly stepped forward and held her tightly in her arms!
“Little bastard!” he muttered.
The big hand clasped her back and pressed her face to her shoulder. Buried in her hair, took a deep breath.
It is her taste.
She is finally back.
Peaceful, healthy and healthy.
“No more running!” he whispered.
“Hmm…” She closed her eyes and enjoyed his generous shoulders. “Don’t run anymore.”
It was suddenly pushed away.
Opening his eyes, Cao Yang had pulled out a small velvet box from his pocket and threw it aside. The shining ring was placed directly on her finger.
“My mother’s ring.” He said, “Give it to my daughter-in-law. Put on this, it is my person.”
Xiarou’s bright scorpion bends like a crescent.
“Good!” She laughed.
Pick up your feet and kiss his lips.
Why do you think about Acacia? Is a kiss enough?
Nature is not enough.
Cao Yang is too tight, like to embed her in her body. Still want to hold her upstairs.
Xiarou was shocked and his face was blushing: “Big Brother!”
Cao Yang thought very much.
There is a cough that is not interesting. Cao An held the door with one hand and leaned over. He said in a sigh: “Hey, isn’t it the time for me?”
“Dad waiting for you!” He rolled his eyes.
Cao Yang is helpless.
Xiarou is happy. Holding his hand and running to the courtyard.
“Uncle -” she cried with a smile. “Second brother, third brother… I am coming back!”
On the lawn, at the table of the logs, Cao Xiong two smashed the frost, put down the newspaper, Cao Bin, Cao Xing mouth smiled, looked at the cheerful girl who ran over…
Once, she came to this house in a black mourning dress.
Soon, she will come to this home again in a white wedding dress.
This time, forever, become a member of this family.
[End of the text]
The full text is complete, no exception.
——Ding Yuchun·Sleeve side
The author has something to say: winter cold is gradually disappearing, spring is still shallow.
It’s finally over, and the story stops here, I think it’s the best. Old readers know that my habit is actually to write the ending after writing the beginning.
The silk flower, through a “fostering” Wannian stalk, tells a girl who is not mature, and finds her past life through this life.
Hanging pets, marked with sweet text, I secretly wrote as a text of abuse.
Yes, I did indicate that the protagonist is “Xiarou, Caoyang” in the character column. But in this story, there are two Cao Yang.
Cao Yang in this life, the older brother of the past life.
In the story, I don’t have to do more than one summary. Different people see different stories, it is really benevolent seeing benevolence, wise seeing wisdom.
Thank you all for coming here.
Thanks to all the nutrient solutions and mines.
Thanks to the hard-working angels.
Thanks to the few who gave me a long comment.
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